FOR WHEN WORDS FEEL INADEQUATE
As dots of ink snaked their way across the page, it seemed impossible they could ever fill the insatiable hole left by grief after a series of intense losses in my little faith community. Tasked with writing words of hope, I found none fit for the job, and I was desperate for the Word Himself to show up in every way I had ever experienced Him before; in His Word, in me, and in His beautiful community.

So you want to impact the world for Jesus—but your life feels more like a train wreck than a billboard for God’s love. I used to feel this way, too, until one young girl changed everything.

Her name was Leilani, Hawaiian for a heavenly garland of flowers. I felt an immediate connection with her bright spirit. As a teen mom, she knew what it was to be wrecked by rejection and cast out by the callous. Yet she also understood the joy of being loved by Jesus without limit.

I first met Leilani when she invited herself to a Bible Study in my home. You heard that right. She invited herself and arrived with a well-marked Bible, eager to learn. On her way out the door, she whispered, “I want to be like you.” Startled, I asked her what she meant. “When I grow up, I want to tell others about Jesus.” But growing up would not be part of her story—she would not reach eighteen.

Leilani’s unexpected departure from our little community sent waves of witness to all in her sphere. Her classmates, who attended a last-chance high school for students with behavioral problems, felt her impact too.

What was it that made her so impactful?

Living out of the false self creates a compulsive desire to present a perfect image to the public so that everyone will admire us and nobody …

Are you curious, or are you certain, and which would you rather be?
In a culture that craves dogmatism, curious questioners quickly wear out their welcome. To bravely peek beneath the veneer of certitude, especially our own, takes courage, practice, and a sprinkle of child-like wonder. American spiritual teacher, author, and philosopher Vernon Howard said, “Always walk through life as if you have something new to learn.”